To begin, let me just say that I have loved being married 53
days, and I didn’t know I would love it this much.
Jump back now 53 days before marriage and I was an anxiety-driven
mess dreading wedding planning/ being the bride and not being able to hide in
the corner, wondering how life is going to change, what my new struggles will
be, what my alone time will look like, how my friendships
will change, and how on Earth am I going to be a wife?! The list went on adding
up to the fact that I wasn’t trusting God is good and that He is for me. This I
found is the root of all of my anxiety—again, not trusting that GOD IS
GOOD and HE IS FOR ME.
There were some bumps along the way, but I would not change
a single thing about my wedding day. I thought eloping was the best option—I
was wrong. That’s a whole other post in itself.
Ben & I went to Northern California for 2 weeks right
after we got married and it was incredible. I actually get emotional thinking
about it because I wish we were back in our little cabin, sitting by the fire,
doing a puzzle, and dipping Oreos in coffee. I was a little worried about
spending 2 straight weeks with my new husband who I had never spent that much
time with before. I am a strong introvert and could spend 2 weeks by myself perfectly satisfied. And by "by myself" I mean with a few books surrounded by nature. BUT there was not a single moment that I wished I could just be left
alone. Ben is truly my best friend and I was so excited to wake up everyday and
adventure with him. I believe we have a lot to owe to our long distance
relationship of Face Timing for hours and not having any physical touch. But
that’s also a whole other post.
Coming home from Cali was a little tough to transition back
into real life, but we got the hang of it. Ben went back to work and I went
back to class, but this time being married! Being a student wife is a lot better than I thought as well. I
procrastinate a lot less often because I want to spend time with Ben when
he gets home. I think I pretty much prepared myself for every worst possible
situation, yet none of them have even came close to being true. That’s pretty
typical in my world.
Tuesday night is date night, which I love because I get home
at 6 and don’t want to do anything but chill. Last night Ben brought home flowers, we ate delicious homemade chili (recipe here) and cornbread (recipe here), had a glass of red wine, talked about
consumer issues in American (short film here), and watched Prison Break. I have a love hate
relationship with PB…it’s too tense, but I want to know what’s going to happen
next. Our date nights also usually end up at Cava—we’re about that high-class
life obviously.
Wednesday Ben plays basketball with some guys at our church,
and I have a night to myself. Thursday we have small group with an awesome
group of young married couples—3 are prego, which is super exciting. (No, Ben
and I don’t plan on any kids for a few years). And the rest of our days are
spontaneous.
The two biggest changes most likely came from me: going from eating meat every meal to attempting
to become vegan because it breaks my heart how we're treating this beautiful planet, and changing my major from elementary education to family
science. All good things. I could write 5 pages, but I wont.
Thanks for caring up to this point. If I could
have you take anything out of this life update it is that God truly is good and He truly is
for you. He is worthy of your trust my friend. And if you are ever doubting
that, then just communicate with Him. Tell Him you don’t trust Him and admit you need
help. His grace is abundant and I promise He hears you. There’s a
whole book on it.
Until the next random day.
Love from Laura.
